Saturday, September 4, 2010


Do you ever feel as if you have just disappeared or have been completely forgotten? It seems a lot lately that that has become my life. It's as if unless you are physically right in front of someone, then it's as if you do not even exist. It's not a pleasant feeling I've decided. It's as if you try and try and try to remain unforgotten, but you are just not important enough or you are just so inconsequential that it doesn't even matter how hard you try. No matter what you do in your life, or what you accomplish or how hard you try, there will always be sisters who just forget and don't care about you, who make promises endlessly and don't keep a single one and let you down time after time, and don't even show up to your own graduation. It's as if you have never even existed to them and they don't even care about you. There will be brothers who move and get busy with their own lives that there isn't time for you anymore because California and Colorado and school and work and girls are more important than you are or than you have ever been it seems. You move away from home and all of a sudden you are alone, in so many more ways than ever before.

Do you ever feel that way? Because I do.
It seems to be never ending.